Tuesday, 24 November 2015

Lingering moments in His presence

Strength once more, for the weary heart. Our hearts; a place for Wisdom to dwell. He has promised before; Emmanuel - God with us, Christ in us, our hope of glory. Never late, never wrong, always good is our God, El-Shaddai Adonai. He calls us to join Him to a place. A place of his love, warmth, care, victory, forgiveness, his empowering grace. To his embrace, there is so much more to receive. To be touched never to be the same again. As we wait, we worship Him, As we watch in hope, we linger here in His embrace. Right here, right now and every day. Faith stretched, to be bold once more, Declaring His praises everywhere. The best is for us right now and in the future. He tells us over and over. We are not afraid. He reaches out His hand from the mighty waters and calls us to join Him, To a place of withholding nothing, giving him our all, fully letting go and Letting Him be. The victory is in His presence, the victory is in Him. The victory is found in who He is. I linger here just a little longer and more. And that’s not all: We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. We find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God’s grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise. Romans 5:2 MSG #InHispresence #AsIreflect #inawe

Dont...Gods choices are easy

God helps me with my choices. He doesnt leave me to my inadequacies. He keeps bringing me to Himself. These are special moments for a gal with her daddy. His love for me echoes and reaches me in my most unloveable moments(at least thats what I think). His pursuit for me keeps blowing my mind. He lets me watch as  He prepares a table for me...I soak in His presence as he annoint my head..my cup overflows.....in view of His mercy...I  offer myself, all of me. I know my humanness doesnt intimidate  Him not like how situations intimidate my humaness. Hence I boldly come and let Him be with me in all of my life's moments. In this moment of my life,I am ruined with love,His love. Just like Jacob, my limp is obvious but what is more obvious is that I prevailed and will always be victorious. I will hold on for dear life not just for His blessings. Just like Moses I wont go anywhere without Him....
All of life will be no life without him. In this moment, He is my king yet my friend and my father...words fail me to explain all of this. All I know is that I want this moment to be a lifetime for me...I want this view of life from this place to be my forever view of life in this land of the living. His view of life is life for me in this moment and I pray oh God,it wont end in this moment.
First written 21/10/2014

Monday, 23 November 2015

My journey with grief

Today I laugh...many times this year, lot of tears were shed from this face. I have had  emotional experiences I never imagined possible,not fully over but laughter in between those moments is growing. I believe in time I will heal and would remember only with smiles but for now I take the rollercoaster as it comes. At times the pain of grief catches me offguard, how I wish Im always in control...so I could stop it and cry in the privacy of my own space but I have embraced it as part of life, as part of the process of healing.  As God continue to minister to my heart, life become bearable, the comfort truly comforts and I know for sure in time I will heal. I will speak only of memories, 2015 the year I lost SesMahlodi and Sophia 2 months apart and I prevailed,with the year almost over, I have prevailed, God has brought me through victoriously indeed.